Kate Ferdinand showed off a sweet handwritten note from her stepdaughter Tia, nine, asking her to stop crying after hearing her sob behind a door.
The former TOWIE star, 29, welcomed her son Cree with Rio last month, and admitted her ’emotions are at an all time high’ in an Instagram post on Thursday.
Kate said she hoped Cree’s screams would ‘drown out the sound of my tears’, and was overwhelmed when she found a message which read: ‘Pls stop crying. I love u’ (sic) had been slipped through the door.
‘Pls stop crying’: Kate Ferdinand showed off a sweet handwritten note from her stepdaughter Tia, nine, asking her to stop crying after feeling overwhelmed with emotion
Kate wrote: ‘Just when I thought the screaming baby would drown out the sound of my tears, I get this through the door as if I wasn’t emotional enough.
‘To new mums, mums, step mums … and anyone who is struggling in lockdown, I feel you! Sometimes we just need to sneak in our room and have a little cry … even then, because of lockdown, we may have lots of little ears listening in.
‘A mix of the new baby, lockdown, kids at home and lack of sleep have well and truly got me. I feel like I’m a robot going through the same routine daily, feed baby, wind baby, wait for him to wake and repeat.’
Candid: The former TOWIE star, 29, welcomed her son Cree with Rio last month, and admitted her ’emotions are at an all time high’ in an Instagram post on Thursday
Moved: Kate said she hoped Cree’s screams would ‘drown out the sound of my tears’, and was overwhelmed when she found a message which read: ‘Pls stop crying. I love u’
Kate told her followers she is ‘ blessed to live the life I do’, with husband Rio, 42, her three stepchildren; Lorenz, 14, Tate, 12 Tia, son Cree, and her two dogs.
The reality star said while some times she is filled with happiness and love, she is ‘too often feeling low, like I can’t escape’.
She continued: I’m not sure if this is the after effects of a emergency c section, or the stress of another lockdown – maybe it’s even a mix of both.
‘My whole heart’: Kate took to Instagram on Christmas Eve to upload the first image of their newborn, with his older siblings Lorenz, 14, Tate, 12, and Tia, nine, cooing over him
‘I feel so lucky to have just welcomed a beautiful baby boy into the world, some people never get to experience this amazing feeling, but my emotions and anxiety are at an all time high … all my coping mechanisms I’ve learnt over the years to keep my anxiety at bay I can’t utilise. A workout, a long walk, some alone time.
”Everything passes, and I know too this soon shall pass, I’m just in it right now.’
Kate said she felt it was her duty ‘to show you the real not so perfect me’, to help others who are feeling the same.
Earlier this month, the reality star admitted that she has been feeling exhausted since her son Cree was born by emergency caesarean just before Christmas.
She wrote: ‘After having an emergency c section, and a bit of a traumatic birth I’ve been completely wiped out.
‘The happiness has been overwhelming but so have the tears and emotions, I’ve felt like I can’t do what I’m meant to be doing with Cree as I haven’t been able to change or feed him consistently which has had me feeling all types of guilt, for Cree, Rio & that I can’t be doing what I normally do for the kids.
‘It’s a whirlwind I just wasn’t expecting … but at the same time the most perfect whirlwind.’
New mother: Kate said that although she is over the moon to have welcomed her ‘beautiful’ baby, her emotions are still ‘all over the place’ and she is crying ‘often’
Kate embarked on a relationship with Rio in 2017 and stepped back from TOWIE to become a mother figure for the trio, after his first wife Rebecca passed away in 2015.
Rio then proposed to Kate in November 2018 after almost two years of dating. She accepted his romantic rooftop proposal during a family holiday to Abu Dhabi.
He popped the question in front of his three children after the former footballer was given the blessing of his late wife Rebecca to find love again.
The duo tied the knot less than a year later with a romantic ceremony taking place in September 2019 at the luxurious D Maris Bay hotel in Turkey.
In 2018, Kate revealed that Rio’s three children were keen for her to have a baby so they could have another sibling to play with.
Lovely: Kate stepped back from TOWIE to become a mother figure for Rio’s three children, after his first wife, Rebecca, tragically passed away from breast cancer in 2015