Michelle Heaton recalls turmoil of drinking morning of New Year’s Day after downing litre of vodka and bottle of wine the night before despite repeated promises to quit alcohol

Michelle Heaton promised to quit alcohol every New Year for ‘at least five years’ and would be drinking by midday on New Year’s Day before she checked into rehab in 2021.

The singer, 44, would down a litre of vodka and a bottle of wine on New Year’s Eve and would have to drink the next day to steady herself as she battled fear, nausea and pain as a result of her binge.

Pop star Michelle, who shares children Faith, 11, and AJ, nine, with husband Hugh Hanley, decided she wanted to change her ways on New Year’s Day 2021 and sought help, with the performer now being nearly three years sober.

She told The Sun: ‘Every New Year, for at least the five years before I quit, I promised myself, and everyone else, that I’d stop drinking.

‘I would swear I’d be sober for January — but by midday on the 1st I’d be drunk again, back on the Bellinis. I just couldn’t stop.’

Michelle Heaton promised to quit alcohol every New Year for ‘at least five years’ and would be drinking by midday on New Year’s Day before she checked into rehab in 2021 (Michelle pictured in June)

The singer, 44, would down a litre of vodka and a bottle of wine on New Year¿s Eve and would drink the next day to steady herself as she battled fear, nausea and pain as a result of her binge (Michelle pictured shortly before checking into rehab in 2021)

The singer, 44, would down a litre of vodka and a bottle of wine on New Year’s Eve and would drink the next day to steady herself as she battled fear, nausea and pain as a result of her binge (Michelle pictured shortly before checking into rehab in 2021)

After years of heavy drinking, in April 2021 Michelle checked into the Priory Clinic where she got help for her alcohol addiction.

And she says each New Year is a reminder for how far she has come. 

She said: ‘Although April is my sobriety anniversary, this will be my third New Year sober. And when I think about it like that, it really is amazing.

‘That first Christmas and New Year was really tough —­ of course, I wanted to drink and I had to really fight that.

‘But I got through it, and then the second one was easier — I didn’t feel like I was triggered or that I wanted to drink. And now . . . this is my life.’

While Michelle no longer drinks, the Liberty X star continually works on her recovery, insisting just one drink could put her back at square one.

Former Celebrity Big Brother housemate Michelle claims she was days from death before heading to rehab.

‘My pancreas didn’t work properly. My liver function was very, very abnormal and it created a lot of problems,’ she explained.

Pop star Michelle decided she wanted to change her ways on New Year's Day 2021 and sought help in April that year, with the performer now being nearly three years sober

Pop star Michelle decided she wanted to change her ways on New Year’s Day 2021 and sought help in April that year, with the performer now being nearly three years sober

‘My belly was solid, especially on the right-hand side where the liver is, and it was constantly painful.’

She previously told Closer magazine: ‘Rehab saved my life – after my medical examination there, they told me I’d have been dead within days if I hadn’t got help. 

‘I’m still on medication to help my pancreas function as it’s been completely destroyed.

‘Recovery is the hardest thing I’ve ever done, but my fight to keep sober is something I’ll do every day for the rest of my life.’

During the Christmas period of 2020, Michelle was hospitalised following a mammoth drinking session in Liverpool, with the star needing to be put on a drip for 48 hours after blacking out.

However, after she was discharged she headed straight to the nearest off-licence and carried on drinking.

Michelle, who shares children Faith, 11, and AJ, nine, with husband Hugh Hanley (pictured), continually works on her recovery, insisting just one drink could put her back at square one

Michelle, who shares children Faith, 11, and AJ, nine, with husband Hugh Hanley (pictured), continually works on her recovery, insisting just one drink could put her back at square one

Former Celebrity Big Brother housemate Michelle claims she was days from death before heading to rehab (pictured with children Faith and AJ)

Former Celebrity Big Brother housemate Michelle claims she was days from death before heading to rehab (pictured with children Faith and AJ)

Weeks earlier, she had collapsed backstage at a theatre as she prepared to take to the stage for a performance, when she was left dangerously dehydrated by booze. 

Michelle recently said she feels ‘lucky to be alive’ after achieving sobriety, believing she has a guardian angel who watches over her.

She told new! magazine: ‘On paper, I really should have died years ago. But there’s an angel out there keeping an eye on me and I’m so grateful. 

‘Every day, I know I’m lucky to be alive and here for Faith and AJ.’

Meanwhile, Michelle lashed out at ‘so-called friends’ who attempted to cash in on her addiction nightmare.

She told OK! magazine: ‘When I came out of rehabilitation, my family and I decided to share my story in my own time and in my own words so the narrative couldn’t be twisted by people around me who were so-called friends.’

When asked who was betraying her, Michelle explained: ‘I had people who were trying to make a bit of money on the side and sell their experiences of my addiction. Those people know who they are. 

Michelle recently said she feels 'lucky to be alive' after achieving sobriety, believing she has a guardian angel who watches over her (Michelle still performs with two of her Liberty X bandmates, Jessica Taylor, centre, and Kelli Young, right)

Michelle recently said she feels ‘lucky to be alive’ after achieving sobriety, believing she has a guardian angel who watches over her (Michelle still performs with two of her Liberty X bandmates, Jessica Taylor, centre, and Kelli Young, right)

‘So I took matters into my own hands to tell my truth. It did me a favour in the end – it helped me to be honest and to help others.’

Michelle has now been sober for two and half years, and insists kicking her addiction has made her feel liberated.

She told the publication: ‘I’m feeling amazing. I’m so free now and it’s a place I dreamed of getting to.’

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