Louise Thompson opens up about her experience with PTSD


Louise Thompson has given a detailed account of her experience with PTSD on Friday after she revealed she nearly died while giving birth to her son Leo-Hunter. 

Taking to Instagram, she shared a snap of her cuddling up to her son and two dogs while penning a lengthy caption about the after effects of her traumatic birthing story. 

The former Made In Chelsea, 31, nearly died after giving birth to Leo-Hunter, while the newborn – who she has dubbed her ‘miracle baby’ – also required urgent treatment in NICU. 

Traumatic: Louise Thompson, 31, has given a detailed account of her experience with PTSD on Friday after she revealed she nearly died while giving birth to her son Leo-Hunter

Louise honestly detailed her experience and how she suffers from ‘depressive panic episodes’ which leave her ‘unable to function.’

She wrote in the caption: ‘Trigger warning: PTSD My experience so far… I can only write when I am not having a depressive panic episode and luckily right now I am not. My panic episodes can last hours or days and are totally unpredictable.

‘When I’m having one I can’t function, I can’t look after myself, let alone anyone else around me. I can’t even spell my name. I can’t see, I can’t hear, I can’t look anyone in the eye. They have got so bad that I have convinced myself that I’m going crazy.

‘I feel depersonalisation, hyper paranoia as if I’ve taken a million and one drugs and I feel like I’m stuck in another realm. I am not myself. If my mind can’t find a physical problem then it will attach itself to a mental one. 

Sad:The former Made In Chelsea nearly died after giving birth to Leo-Hunter, while the newborn - who she has dubbed her 'miracle baby' - also required urgent treatment in NICU; pictured in the hospital

Sad:The former Made In Chelsea nearly died after giving birth to Leo-Hunter, while the newborn – who she has dubbed her ‘miracle baby’ – also required urgent treatment in NICU; pictured in the hospital 

Strong: Taking to Instagram, she shared a snap of her cuddling up to her son and two dogs while penning a lengthy caption about the after effects of her traumatic birthing story

Strong: Taking to Instagram, she shared a snap of her cuddling up to her son and two dogs while penning a lengthy caption about the after effects of her traumatic birthing story

‘The other night I thought my head was actually going to explode open because my internal dialogue was so wild and overwrought. I looked in the mirror and my eyes were blood shot. 

‘I don’t know whether the mental causes the physical or the other way around, but things seem to be getting worse. If it was a permanent state, I don’t think I would be here.’  

She then went onto say that she is left unable to plan her days because these episodes are so unpredictable. 

‘It’s frustrating that I can’t predict them because it means I can’t plan anything. Every day is so uncertain. What is certain is that I’m not thinking about anything negative, in fact I’m doing everything I can to try not to spiral… but my subconscious thinks that I’m dying all the time. 

Upsetting: She detailed her experience and how she suffers from 'depressive panic episodes' which leave her 'unable to function'

Upsetting: She detailed her experience and how she suffers from ‘depressive panic episodes’ which leave her ‘unable to function’ 

‘I think I have boxed my experiences up and buried them, but they are coming back to haunt me. ALL THE TIME. My body and mind are in constant fight or flight mode and I quite literally will be triggered by anything. The other day I looked in the mirror and noticed that the underside of my tongue was blue. I thought I was dying.’  

She also detailed her triggers with the mental health condition and the symptoms she is dealing with. 

‘Another trigger: mornings. That’s the worst one, I’m actually fearful of getting up in the morning because if I start the day with an episode then I really struggle to flick the switch/to claw my way out of it and that means a whole day of battling with myself which is exhausting. 

‘No tools can fix the problem. Nothing. Tools seem laughable at this point, but I’m sure they will get better. I’m not just a hypochondriac I do have a lot of really bad physical symptoms too like pain, dizziness, fainting, temperatures, blood pressure issues, nausea, diarrhoea, adrenaline, heavy night sweats, eye problems, the list goes on.’ 

Baby joy: The reality star had announced that she was taking a break from social media on November 14, ahead of the birth, but concerned fans after remaining silent in the following weeks

Baby joy: The reality star had announced that she was taking a break from social media on November 14, ahead of the birth, but concerned fans after remaining silent in the following weeks

Speaking out: On December 23 shared a lengthy explanation for her absence as she thanked her fans for all their support and well wishes

Speaking out: On December 23 shared a lengthy explanation for her absence as she thanked her fans for all their support and well wishes 

She shared that she also spent New Year’s Day back in hospital and sent a tribute to the NHS.  

‘I spent New Year’s Day back in A&E and once again godbless the nhs for looking after me. But I need to remember that I’ve still come so far. Things were actually a lot worse. It doesn’t feel like it now but they were. Before I was worrying about savage internal infections and scary blood test results, now I’m worrying about fatigue and memory loss. 

The trends are moving in the right direction and I’m weaned off all my meds. I’m not even taking sleeping pills anymore because I’m worried about the psychogenic effects. I really want to be clean. 

‘When I have one full good day I celebrate it, but I’m actually scared about what is going to come next.

‘Has anyone else been trapped in this world of PTSD? I know that everyone’s experience is different. In fact please don’t comment anything unless it is resoundingly positive because I’m not sure I can handle it right now.

‘If you are struggling with mental health problems, know that you are not alone. We are all in this together. Life can be a real beauty and a real tough b**** too.’

Proud mama: While she confessed that she was 'in a bit of a strange place mentally and physically,' the new mum said that she was finally at a place where she could 'see a future where I get to live peacefully on this earth with my son'

Proud mama: While she confessed that she was ‘in a bit of a strange place mentally and physically,’ the new mum said that she was finally at a place where she could ‘see a future where I get to live peacefully on this earth with my son’ 

Louise previously shared the first picture of her adorable son on her page and admitted ‘it wasn’t easy’ to explain what has happened to her in recent weeks.

The reality star had announced that she was taking a break from social media on November 14, ahead of the birth, but concerned fans after remaining silent in the following weeks.

On December 23, in a lengthy post, Louise admitted that she ‘never imagined that so many bad things could happen to me, but to dance with death twice brings a whole new view of the world – a stark reminder of how short and sacred life really is.’

While she confessed that she was ‘in a bit of a strange place mentally and physically,’ the new mum said that she was finally at a place where she could ‘see a future where I get to live peacefully on this earth with my son.’

Ryan has yet to speak about the birth of their little boy or share any pictures on his Instagram, however, he has since updated his bio to read: ‘daddy.’ 

Incredible:She has praised her partner for being her 'rock' since giving birth

Incredible:She has praised her partner for being her ‘rock’ since giving birth

She has praised her partner for being her ‘rock’ since giving birth. 

Louise took to Instagram to thank him for everything he has done, including ‘calling ambulances, waiting outside operating theatres and sleeping on hard hospital floors.’ 

In the post the television personality told how he it had been the ‘hardest year of her life’ but that he helped her recover when they returned home.

She explained how he ‘showered her, changed sanitary towels, injected her’ and brought her little one to see her in hospital so they could bond.

Louise signed off by saying she ‘commended’ Ryan who had ‘witnessed things no partner should ever have to’, before calling him her ‘rock.’ 

Alongside the lengthy caption she shared several photos of Ryan and their baby together as he cradled him in hospital while she was hooked up to machines. 

If you have been affected by anything in this story please contact Birth Trauma Association at birthtraumaassociation.org.uk

Amazing: Louise took to Instagram to thank him for everything he has done, including 'calling ambulance, waiting outside operating theatres and sleeping on hard hospital floors'

Amazing: Louise took to Instagram to thank him for everything he has done, including ‘calling ambulance, waiting outside operating theatres and sleeping on hard hospital floors’

What is PTSD?  

Symptoms  

Someone with PTSD often relives the traumatic event through nightmares and flashbacks, and may experience feelings of isolation, irritability and guilt.

They may also have problems sleeping, such as insomnia, and find concentrating difficult.

These symptoms are often severe and persistent enough to have a significant impact on the person’s day-to-day life.

 Causes 

Any situation that a person finds traumatic can cause PTSD.

These can include:

PTSD can develop immediately after someone experiences a disturbing event, or it can occur weeks, months or even years later.

PTSD is estimated to affect about 1 in every 3 people who have a traumatic experience, but it’s not clear exactly why some people develop the condition and others do not.

Source: NHS  

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