Lisa Marie Presley penned an essay sharing her ‘unrelenting grief’ over her son Benjamin’s untimely death just five months before she suffered a ‘full cardiac arrest.’
The 54-year-old daughter of Elvis Presley was rushed to a hospital after paramedics were able to reestablish her pulse, TMZ reported on Thursday.
Back in August of 2022, Presley penned an essay about her attempts to move on from her son Benjamin’s death to mark National Grief Awareness.
‘I can understand why people may want to avoid you once a terrible tragedy has struck. Especially a parent losing their child because it is truly your worst nightmare,’ she wrote in her essay, which was published by People.
‘Unrelenting grief’: Lisa Marie Presley, who fell into cardiac arrest on Thursday before being revived by paramedics, penned an essay about her overwhelming grief at her son Benjamin’s suicide back in August of 2022; seen together in 2012
Benjamin Keough was 27 at the time of his death.
In the emotional essay, Presley admitted that she had kept her distance from the parents of other people whose children died by suicide, something that now seemed to haunt her.
‘I can recall a couple of times in my life where I knew parents who lost their child and while I could be there for them when it happened, I avoided them after and never bothered to follow up with them because they quite literally became a representative of my biggest fear,’ she wrote.
‘I also low-key judged them, and I swore I’d never do whatever it was that I felt they either did or neglected in their parental actions and choices with their child.’
Terrible fear: In the emotional essay, published by People, Presley admitted that she had kept her distance from the parents of other people whose children died by suicide, something that now seemed to haunt her; seen on Tuesday at the Golden Globes in Beverly Hills
The daughter of Priscilla Presley — who was seen rushing to her side at the hospital after her medical emergency — wrote that she had been ‘living in the horrific reality’ of grief’s ‘unrelenting grips’ ever since her son’s death.
Unfortunately, it was a feeling she was well versed in, having suffered the death of her father Elvis Presley in 1977, which was initially said to be from cardiac arrest, though his prodigious drug use is also believed to have been a factor.
His daughter was just nine at the time of his death.
Presley admitted in her essay that grief is not a ‘comfortable subject for anyone’ and is ‘most unpopular’ to discuss.
But she believed it was necessary to speak openly about grief and tragedy if any ‘progress’ was to be made.
No stranger to family tragedy: Presley, seen in 2010 in London with Michael Lockwood and Ben, previously dealt with grief following the death of her father Elvis Presley in 1977
Presley added that her son reminded her of her father, which only troubled her further.
He was ‘so much like his grandfather on so many levels that he actually scared me,’ she wrote, adding that it, ‘made me worry about him even more than I naturally would have.’
Two years after Benjamin’s death, Lisa had not felt much relief from the tragic loss.
‘I already battle with and beat myself up tirelessly and chronically, blaming myself every single day and that’s hard enough to now live with,’ she confessed, adding that, ‘others will judge and blame you too, even secretly or behind your back which is even more cruel and painful on top of everything else.’
She opined that ‘grief does not stop or go away in any sense, a year, or years after the loss. Grief is something you will have to carry with you for the rest of your life, in spite of what certain people or our culture wants us to believe.
‘You do not “get over it,” you do not “move on,” period,’ she wrote.
Hard to move on: Two years after Benjamin’s death, Lisa had not felt much relief from the tragic loss. ‘I already battle with and beat myself up tirelessly and chronically, blaming myself every single day and that’s hard enough to now live with,’ she confessed; seen with seen with Benjamin, daughter Riley and Lisa’a half-brother Navarone Garibaldi